The Journey is the Destination

A very VERY close friend of mine in New York calls me "Princess Butterfly" - the butterfly being the sign of movement from our physical selves to our divine selves, and the blessing of following our bliss in life. 

The butterfly is also a sign of beauty, and transformation from the awkward and ungainly bug, to the colorful emulated creature. However, in any one of her stages of existence, the butterfly does not know what will happen, she is not aware of what her colors will be when she emerges from her cocoon, she doesn't even know she is in a cocoon to emerge from.To her senses, it is simply existence.

I do not  believe we get to a "place" in life where we are completely satisfied, I actually don't even know what that means at this point. It is the path that is my place. It is walking through all the different aspects of my life and who I am which is my home. 

If that sounds a little esoteric for you to digest, all I mean to say is, it is the understanding and enjoyment, nay, the appreciation for each stage of the journey which provides me with happiness, not the notion that I need to get to a certain place, and even worse, in a certain amount of time. After all, if you know me, you know I don't like rules, and words like "parameter" or "limit" give me a knot in my stomach. 

Obviously, as a human woman, and not an insect, I am aware and have an emotional reaction to my moments, on the other hand, I have begun to learn how to manage that, live in the moment, without necessarily knowing what the next one looks - and yet knowing I am going in the right direction toward my passion, desire, goals, and dreams.

Ok, your pandering to know REALLY how I got from picture 1 to picture 2 is palpable... wait a second... did you read my opening???  

Well, first and foremost, I WANTED to, period.

Second, I slowly began to allow myself to be in each stage of transformation as it was happening rather than worrying about what the next one looked like. Mainly because I didn't know. I couldn't predict what would happen, or when.

All I know is had/have a goal - and hint, it is not just about my body- and I continue to work everyday toward that goal even if I don't always sensibly perceive a result. 

I also allowed (and continue to allow), myself to be uncomfortable, understand the discomfort is temporary, and move on with my life.

Technically what I am doing is for a different blog, which I do intend to share, when it is time... which means you'll have to wait... so sit in your thoughts, know ANYTHING is possible, and I'll be back soon :).

Til then much love and light to you on your own journey!

Anna